Lost and lavender (part-1)

A girl stays in the corner of my room lonely, sad, broken, timid and ofcourse dark and she stays in the darkest part of my room. She watches me dancing when I am happy she sees me sad sees me wipeing my tears. When I switch off my lights still she can see me. I don’t know why she never tries to communicate with me. She happy being alone, she is happy seeing me into deep thoughts.

I always found myself watched. I never bothered about her. Leaving the first day when I saw her. I was a little happy as I got a new friend in this fake world and with someone who can oviously not spill my secreats and with the brown twirled eyes and short hairs with thoose eyes she would stare at me.

But I tried to communicate with her and she is giving me signs about me and she is always a good abuser and an advicer. But the problem is I never listen to her. I do what I think is right. And then when my right turns out to be my biggest mistake she would laugh at me and glare with thoose eyes and says “I told you not to….” And then I would regret by not commanding her instructions. Maybe she is good at heart. Beacause every time I fall apart she gives me a shoulder and says “it happens don’t worry, everything gonna be fine” and I hear them all. Yes that girl knows all my stories and respect me and my sadness. Let me tell you it’s not ME

To be continued…

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The new age

Really sorry for being late for this blog but I couldn’t find somethings on their way.

You all must have observed that you have always been judged over way of your dressing or your dressing scence, no matter if you got no “Scence”. Even if the person has a face of footprint he should have a good dress. Oh how can I forget here ” looks > brains”.

I was closing my eyes when I saw the beamlight of cars flashing through the glass window of my car. It’s been a while since we were travelling. And when I am totally free I think about what is happening and cry over it. I was thinking of 2-3 majorly girls who were like litrally harassing a girl with words for wearing a pretty small dress.

I was feeling so guilty about not being break their faces with the moral values of minding their own business but kept quiet? Why? How could I?

She came into tears her heart broke into pieces not beacause of a guy but because of a girl. This was literally disgusting. You must have seen many mental tortures but not this.

I wanted to say them that:

Is she your daughter? Or she is spending your money? Tell me why are you being so much of jeloused of her? She can do whatever she wants!

Let me tell you another thing that is when you pass immoral and depressing statement towards anyone just wait a second and ask fee question to yourself if you can answer these you should definitely say the phrase..

  • I am doing this thing will it help anyone?
  • The things which I am going to share will it not hurt his/her sentiments?
  • What if the same words are spoken to me
  • Are this good according to my moral values taught by elders

Error 404 in me

Yesterday was 15 january 2018 and the day was almost going as better I wished for, nothing special was happening or going to happen, I don’t know but I was getting a dizzy vibe. This is not the first time that I was getting such vibes. I don’t know I was feeling that something really bad I s going to happen. And I don’t know why I was feeling that I am going to have a leave on another Friday , I made myself prepare for the Friday school as I needed to return some book which I took couple of weeks ago.

And being moody person I destroy my mood a very soon I was trying to recall everything happen in last past 10 years but couldn’t figure anything out. I slept with such thoughts all over my minds. That day I dreamed nothing and slept peacefully under the sheets. With a sudden knock I woke up, I thought I was late and I didn’t hear the alarm clock shouting at my ears no, it was 5 in the morning when my mom came to me crying with the saddest death news of death about his father. I could see tears in her eyes and I could see her heart crying the loudest. I was still feeling that it was a dream until mom came sat next to me and said “you remember how he used to mess your hairs and give a smile and always used to appreciate your work and even when I used to get angry on you and scold he saved you every time”. I came into teras when I realized this was a truth and couldn’t handle this. I get really sad and deeply broken when I hear about deaths and that to such a close person. I was breaking down I don’t know how to share my pain and pour my heart out so I started reading books this was the best escape and now the main thing was mom asked me for a leave from school today, inside u was worrying that us so much going according to what I thought yesterday.

I don’t know but u guess this was the third time that I experienced what I imagined. I feel so many special powers in me UNREALISTIC TOTALLY. I remembered that what I told to my best friend yesterday that “no matter what we ao there is always something which is left behind ”

Now to conclude I would only say I forget about rest and stay focussed on

  • What is COMMING
  • With all your PEACE
  • Problems are going to come but you need to FIGHT
  • REBEL
  • LOVE what you have

Introvert or extrovert

First of all this is about how in life people are classified between two and.

I just posted some stuff about introvert and I realised they aren’t so bad and I mean they are happy soul flying alone without fear of their thought to be leaked about everywhere…

Wheras when we see an extrovert we realised life is beautiful, they are carefree, spill their sass around and have fun living life…….

But for introvert life is going and will be going on with or without them .but extroverts get senti mental on one outbreak of any relation between two..

Loving aspects of both now it come to feelings and all in this case introverts are actually highly qualified as they have no one to socialise with they read books and have their own fantasies with them whereas the extroverts spill all their love around and shout about and in and out and people start to outrage and jeloused about them……

Not belong in them I belive in being a proper human who has true feeling and a human who loves without no profit no loss because in love some aspects cannot be accomplished but them….

Life is too short🌻 :-

Live🌸

Laugh🌸

Love🌸

Owr first meeting…

5 days to gooo yay….. 4 days to go…..Yoo 3 dayyyys Twoooo And finally the day came when we were suppose to meet..You don’t know the mixed emotions comming inside you. The magical wand making you looking even more prettier. Thoughts were all over running my heads how’s it’s going to be… Feeling a little too mistful and clumsy But with his blissful touch I experienced the exortic summer breeze in just a while of ting. I closed my eyes to feel it more intense. Owr eyes met with with my heart melted like a ice cream on a summer day..And my heart was singing :”yours so gorgeous I can’t say anything to your face, just look at your face” and I was totally black I know how intense I was feeling and how awkward it was looking but I was biting my lips slowly… Holding his hand was blissful but putting myself in his arms was safest feeling ever and gave a..aa…an feeling of saving me from this cruel world. Owr lips din’t met it was owr heart which cane tooo close and from the chaos of the world I could see so much silence in his eyes… Time fled so fast..We were sipping from same straw and dint realising so much intense it was..and the day I could never forget and the hug was the one when heart said ” goodbye , see you soon with a mingling smile” and we were back in reality, back in grind I realised ut was best day of my life so did he I realised life is not so bad I realised I was loved (best feeling ever) I realised everything was beautiful 🌸

Why so beautiful?

I met a guy today online just by a sigh every guy seems to be beautiful but I saw something in his eyes I don’t know what..

With a slight smile I decided a little ,a warm melting heart. What after so long man I got someone my heart fell upon. with a wave of hand I welcomed this friendship and I guess I didnt ever expected this..

Somethings are felt not told. And some feelings are to be taken out not kept secret. Yes yes I fell in love with you beautiful you are more of my than yours. I never ever expected that but what is truth is I always belive in destiny. You are just the puppets in front of god and he decides what will happen when otherwise I would love to time travel and kiss you with my warmess and let you be the reason behind my smile..

Everyting reminds me about something or the other. Hope you to have the same as I do but I keep everyone connected through diffrent things. At every point of life you will come to know about “why the particular person enters in your life?” But I guess there is million reason for you to enter my life